Confessions of an Immigrant- 9

It took me 5 months to realise that writing confessions on my blog gives some sort of peace to me. My tired mind gets relaxed while writing it. The past two months have been a roller coaster ride. I hardly knew what the hell was I doing and where I was going. The non stop assignments, tests made me so busy that I didn’t even get a single minute to think like what the hell was I doing with my life.

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The days in Canadian lifestyle have never been good for an immigrant. At times it is the never ending homesickness, the grief of losing your loved ones, the situations, managing finances, trusting wrong people and to add more, the jobless times. There are times when you feel homeless inspite of living in an apartment. Sometimes you are so alone in your class. You have a company of 39 more classmates still it feels lonely. Only at the time of in class you realise you have classmates as thats the time you talk to them.

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In this one semester I guess I have lived those segments which I have never went through in my past 21 years. I ended up meeting wrong people at wrong time and made mistakes which could have avoided. I won’t say I am sad, upset or depressed. In fact a feeling of aggression hover over mind where I badly want to do soemthing but I can’t. I try to mend the broken pieces of my life but always end up breaking new pieces. Every time the struggles are doubled or tripled. When we were in school we were taught two things, “HELP OTHERS!” ” BE A TRUE FRIEND TO SOMEONE WHO IS IN NEED!” Well, thankyou my dear teachers for these two things but unfortunately in Canada the situation is reverse. Canada goes with three rules, “THINK ABOUT YOURSELF!” “NEVER HELP OTHERS!” “NEVER TRUST OTHERS, NOT EVEN YOUR CLOSED ONES!”

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After going through a major down phase I realised this thing. Sometimes you learn by falling down. But what you learn from that downfall makes you. It is your life and you make the best out of it. The exam phase taught me one thing about teachers. They are generous in giving marks and adjusting the scores. These assignments actually saved us. Even in Canada bad things happen to Teachers. They are misjudged. Here also, our teacher was accused of something which for which she was not at fault. She was hurt and left the college. She performed the duty of a true teacher by conducting the exams. She could have left the job immediately. But she never did. When she hugged me and cried, that was the moment I realised, how dedicated she was. The whole semester she was telling us about the major assignment and she gave us extensions for that. After all that struggle and hardwork we got our grades but what she got? An accusation! I have never seen such a behavior and ached my soul. This incident actually made me respect her even more. Before going she told me, Surbhi, now you have a story to tell to your readers and here I am writing about her. I can only say, I will miss you Mila.

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Today I was in my most bad spirits when all of sudden out of the blew my friend called me. She knew I was not in a good mood. And to make the mood light she asked me to tell everything what was going on my mind as she has gone through all those things in these 3 years so she can imagine my situation. I felt light after telling her my thoughts and made it lighter by telling her about her situations and how she found a way out. She made me realise that there is a way out to everything. Its just you need to figure them out and sort it in the best possible way. At times you have to put a major cut down on things you want to have and at times you need to sacrifice your sleep to earn something. Hard work pays off. She cited those girly examples which actually cor- related to the things. I felt a bit sorted in my mind while talking to her. So immigrants, if you ever feel in that situation, talk to a friend, listen to a song. For me its talking to a friend who has gone through so much and writing my thoughts out so that I can be at peace.

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Parents are always with you. Sometimes you end up making mistakes but its parents who will listen to you, love you and give you the right direction. Your parents are your family and trust me, nobody will come to rescue you or help you when you will be in need. At times, you can manage on your own but then their are cases where everything can’t be managed on your own. Maybe its best to talk to them and tell them how you feel about them. Since you are away and busy, you can’t tell them how much you care about them, you can’t express your true emotions. At times you need to tell them the best things that has happened to you but back home its night and you have to wait for the morning. Now in morning you are late and you are unable to call them and tell them the news. Then the news become a casual story. And here comes the misunderstandings. Love is on both side but this stupid moron distance and time gap acts like an evil. Same goes with friends and relatives. The best taunts you ever hear is “You have gone so busy or you have forgotten us.” Nobody has ever forgotten you, you will always be there in the heart, its just the time and priorities which have changed.

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I have cleared my semester1 and now one more to go. Things can be harsh and harsher but you should know that you are a fighter and you have to fight every battle alone and inspire yourself all the time because your parents, friends and relatives will never be there with you all the time. It is you and you only who has to work hard, make them proud and bleed till you succeed.

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Book Review of Riots of Love

Riots of Love or Mohabbat Ke Dange by Shikha Kaul is a revolutionary thriller. This is her third book and those who have read her other two books can make out the difference. The author sees to experiment alot with the genres and concepts. This book is exceptional and with such type of stories, you are at loss of words.

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The cover of the book surely grabs your attention and it makes you think that it is related to border as we see a line and this reminds us of Hindustan Pakistan Border line. But the story has something else in store for us but this cover arise the hunger to read the book soon.

The title is just marvalous and it is related to a campaign. The author seems to have been inspired by that. The story revolves around the title and it justifies the theme of the story. The interesting fact about the title is its hindi title. Mohabbat Ke Dange has its own essence and it turned out to be a blessing for the book.

Avi Shandilya claims to have killed the young children of four very influential men of India belonging to four different religions and bearing the extremist ideologies. Aatif Khan, one of the top Film stars in Bollywood Saahitya Nath, a strong politician and the leader of a Hindu group Andrew James, a renowned anchor on a leading news channel Jaswant Singh, a top politician in Punjab standing for next elections The world is shocked to see such ghastly and cowardly act by the man who founded ‘Mohabbat Ke Dange (Riots of Love)’, a campaign that stands for unity, peace, communal harmony and humanity. Will the fathers of the dead children take revenge or are there more mysteries left to be unfolded? Will Avi’s supporters stand by him after his inhumane crime? A gripping tale of patriotism and thrill that will give you chills and force you to think and discover the concealed version of everything that goes around. 

The plot is neatly woven and this book shows a thorough research. It might look controversial but it is not. It is just a simple thought which is delineated beautifully through various characters.

The characters are lively and fantastic. Avi Shandilya is a motivational character who not only motivates the other characters but also the readers. Aatif Khan, Andrew James, Jaswant Singh, Saahitya Nath plays a significant role and their children brings a ray of hope and revolution.

This is not only a patriotic thriller but has traces of social novel in it which further has elements of suspense, mystery in it. The concept of flashbacks, stream of consciousness, point of views makes it enteratining. We can also notice wit, humour in it. This book also focus on real life events which have brought a tremendous change in the society.

I am much familiar to the style of writing of Shikha Kaul. She uses simple yet powerful language and can lure you with her thoughts. For a moment you can even picturise the whol novel in your mind. At the same time, it keeps you in deep thoughts and when your guesses are proved wrong, thats the time where the author wins our hearts. As mentioned, this book is in process of movie making and no doubt, it surely deserves it. The twist and turns are the key features along with the sarcasm and witty dialogues used in it. This book is a must read book and I am glad that I picked up this book.

Grab your copies from : http://www.amazon.in/Riots-Love-Mohabbat-Dange-Patriotic/dp/938208875X/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1484838109&sr=1-1&keywords=Riots+of+LOve

About the Author

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There are a few authors in India who do not fear to take the upstream path and experiment with genres rarely touched by the regular writers. Shikha Khanduja Kaul has carved a niche for herself in a span of less than two years since she entered the world of literature. Dedicated to her passion for writing and exploring fresh ideas in fiction with every new work, she has already penned down four books that cover a romantic fiction – ‘Hidden Husband’, a murder mystery – ‘DNA-Dad’s Not Adopted’, a patriotic thriller – ‘Riots of Love (Mohabbat Ke Dange)’, and a yet to be published psychological romantic thriller.

P.S Also read book review of DNA- https://captivatingmode.wordpress.com/2016/11/02/book-review-of-dna-dads-not-adopted/

 

 

Book Review of She Ekla Cholo Re

She Ekla Cholo Re is a short book written by Dr. Shayan Haq and Santosh Avvannavar. I got the copy through goodreads giveaway contest. This book has left a deep remark in my heart and has a whole lot to think about. Let us go in details :

Cover- Well, The cover of the book is simple and might not appeal to people since they are in habit of seeing stylish cover. But I could relate to the authors as they want to make it look simple and to the point.

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Title- The title SHe Ekla Cholo Re is apt as She stands for a woman and Ekla Cholo Re is a bengali song which means If no one answers your call then go on your own way. This story revolves around the title and makes it impeccable.

Plot- The plot of the story is complicated written in a simple way. It is a story of Kusum who goes through trials and tribulations. The way Kusum struggles to find her own identity seems a roller coaster ride and the way the readers witness her follies, sorrows. She is being exploited and the way she is treated by her family could shock anyone. This is the story of her undying passion for life, her love and aspirations.

Characterization- Frankly speaking there are only two main characters who are present in the story while the others are part of main protagonist’s story. Kusum is a she male who comes across Dr. Rajendra Mukherjee on a highway. She takes lift from him and the journey of their life starts. They start discussing about things and slowly KUsum reveals her dark past and the struggles she went through. She is a complex character who is in search of her identity.

Whereas, Raj is a flat character who is a good listener and could feel Kusum’s sorrows . he ends up falling for her and is ready to accept her despite of her being a transgender. He respects her which makes him a hero in our eyes.

Through the story, we comes across Debu who happens to be Kusum’s lover. He is a round character who changes with change in time. His love is not pure and is biased. He is selfish and chooses his reputation and career. He abandons Kusum which brings a void in her life.

Style- The story is slow paced and it gives readers time to absorb the events. The best part is, it is a novelette which can be read in one go. The use of poetic and musical diction is an icing on the cake. The authors have used impersonal descriptions which raise appraisal. Furthermore, the dialogues are powerful and the conversational style of writing takes away my heart. This book leaves a very important message in our minds : No matter what a person is, one should be respected.

Availability – https://www.amazon.in/SHE-Ekla-Cholo-Santosh-Avvannavar-ebook/dp/B016AHDQES

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About the Authors

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Santosh Avvannavar: Santosh started his career as a consultant and Soft Skills Trainer. After his college education from NITK, Surathkal, he worked as a researcher at University of Eindhoven, University of Twente, and Indian Institute of Science, Bangalore. He was also the Placement President while working at IISC, Bangalore. He has over twenty-five publications of mostly research documents in national and international journals. He has also authored sixteen conference papers and regularly written articles for a national and worldwide daily paper. He also works as an advisor for different organisations.

He also dabbles in fiction writing and is the author of Adhuri Prem Kahaniya; Dear Wife, Your Husband is not a Superhero, Second Heart and Get a Job WITHOUT an Interview; Be A B.A.; Surrogate Author; Title is Untitled; Black, Grey and White; The Departing Point; God’s Table and Umbilical Cord.

He likes to devote his personal time in writing for a website, namely the Amrita Foundation for HRD (www.amritafoundation.wordpress.com). He has conducted seminars and training sessions for more than 45,000 people in India and abroad over the last seven years.

Dr. Shyan HAq- Shyan is a medical doctor and cosmetologist by profession working at Bijapur, KArnataka. He is born at Gaya, Bihar and spent his quality time at West Bengal and BIhar before he moved for higher education. In his free time he loves to drive, read, watch and discuss on movies, and a gadget freak.